Tuesday, November 9, 2010

Heaven or Hell?

I wanted to post a few pictures of Anastasha's tombstone/monument.  Tonya a I spent quite some time on its design and the wording on it.  Even though we know that it is just an external, temporary marker for where our daughter's body lay, even her little body is so precious to us that we wanted to mark it with something meaningful. 


Front Close Up

Back Close Up

I wanted to relay a conversation I was in the middle of during Anastasha's burial at the cemetary.  This was while the reverend was praying and reading Scripture.

It was a BEAUTIFUL day outside - sunny, wind blowing, harp music being played.  Cale (3 years old) is sitting on my right, Caelan (4 1/2 years old) on my left (very strategic...that was for "containment").

Cale  - "Daddy, is this Heaven?"

Dad (thinking, "awww, that is so sweet..") - "No buddy.  This isn't heav..."

Caelan (interupting from across my lap...and very matter-of-factly) - "No....This is hell!"

I wasn't sure what do say or do, other than laugh.  In some ways, it felt like a bit of both.


  1. From the mouths of babes! What a touching story. Thank you for sharing. Anastasha's monument is so beautiful. We are still in the process of finalizing the design of Karinne's. I just couldn't make myself think about that part ahead of time. I'm sure it is a good feeling to have it there already though.

  2. Very touching stories! Always amazed at how well children put things even beyond their years. (I would have laughed too had our kids said the same thing)

    I like the wording you picked for her marker, beautiful words.

  3. I just love that story, kids are just amazing. The marker is so beautiful, every single time I see that date it makes my heart skip. Your family is always in my thoughts and prayers.

  4. Great story! The marker is beautiful and you & Tonya did a wondeful job on the wording. Hugs & kisses for you all!

  5. Oh wow, her monument is so beautiful it brought tears to my eyes!!!! I love it.